After a dozens of failed dating attempts, I've lost hope about finding real connection at this time.

Not gonna lie, whenever I open my social media accounts like twitter, facebook, or even by just walking sa public spaces, I feel sad and lonely. Seeing lovely couples in public, nakakainggit.

Parang, how does it feels like to find "home" in a person. Or ano kayang pakiramdam na maconsider na "pahinga." Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for couples I see everywhere, pero I can't help but envy them. Meron naman pala. Meron naman palang nag eexist na love sa LGBTQ community. Pero ba't parang mailap sakin? Hahaha.

I've put myself "out there", I've tried dating apps, I go to the gym, I play online games. I'm exposed everywhere, pero bakit wala?

What's wrong with me? Ano bang kulang? Hahaha. Can't help but question myself. Career boy naman ako, stable, di din naman ako panget, ma effort din. Kinulang lang sa height. Pero ba't yung iba naman?

Anyway, ayun. I've deleted my tinder and bumble account. I'm done finding love. I hope this time, love finds me..