Hello! A 22-year old Versa Top student here.

I've been meaning to ask and know that feeling I feel whenever I bottom for someone.

For context, I had this "bottom era" exploration ko last year kasi I really want to know what am I when it comes to position. I was a Side then, tapos naging Versa, then Versa Top, tho I felt I cannot fully call myself a VT if hindi ko talaga ma-assess at ma-explore and Bottom side ko.

Anyway, 90% of the time, I feel this weird feeling kapag bino-bottom.

Naranasan ko na yung parang naiihi kapag nabubundol/natatamaan/nadadaplisan 'yung prostate, and I think I almost squirted or cum when I first felt it.

Pero the feeling I am talking about feels different, as if siya 'yung painful variant ng parang naiihi. I feel it kapag parang sa dulo lang ng titi niya, like kapag sinasagad and all.

Initially, I thought baka may nabubundol lang siya na walling sa loob kaya ganoon, pero I really don't know.

It sucks kasi parang siya 'yung hindi nawawalang sakit sa bottoming experience ko. Tbh, akala ko baka mamaya, tubol lang siya na napu-push back kaya masakit kapag natatamaan, pero I really don't know.

This could also be the reason why I prefer short diccs vs. long ones kasi the short ones does not gove me that painful sensation, habang the big ones do.

What could it be?