You know that feeling of disappointment when the only thing you're good at and you're not allowed to do it for a long time?

You've read that right. I can have ANAL SEX for 4-6 weeks.

I have an anal fissure. goddamn it. Apparently, I have cuts on my anus. No, I didn't get it from having sex, I got it from shitting my ass out. Coz I have been forcing myself to shit tons of crap.

Well, I self-diagnosed tho coz I can't afford to go to a doctor. I'm very mortified by this.

Can someone help me with how to cure this? coz it's so fucking painful to shit like I can't shit. Whenever I have to, I can feel the agonizing pain from my behind. It's so painful. I can't deal with this. I've read that this can last up to 4-6 weeks. Gods.

Please help me. I can't even tell my parents coz two things:

1. They might think I'm whoring it up (where's the lie tho)
2. They won't help me. I know them. They're just going to antagonize me.

So, to the doctors out there, please help me with how to cure this. Coz' the pain is unbearable. This is fucking embarrassing.

Disclaimer: I know the way I wrote this is annoying but please bear with me I just have to cope.

All your info we'll be very much appreciated.

Thank you.