Basically, I am an "Alpha in the streets" fraud. I have a reputation to uphold so can't meet these needs with anyone this could grapevine to. Doesn't necessarily need to be anything physical between you and I. But I'm not afraid to say I am an attractive guy and ideally I find a good, complimentary type match. My issue is in my last relationship I was made painfully aware of my "size"; while also cheated on. I easily pull girls; but the actual experience has been ruined for me as I am self-conscious now. My tastes have changed as a result; though I can still Dom extremely well would now rather that be "hate fuck" while being "bullied". This has spiraled into me realizing I am an emotional masochist and get off to things that degrade and emasculate me. I have no experience with this sort of dynamic; very little with my ex who was open-minded to things I wanted to try out as a couple and were only tried verbally and snap/text. I want a girl who ideally will enjoy and not hold back with the harshest truths. I really just need a bratty, sadistic girl in my life who will enjoy emasculating me and being simped for, showered w attention, treated like a goddess. The dynamic itself can unfold totally naturally on my end. I'd honestly give one-sided exclusivity to the right person. 0 expectations on my end(including sexually) because for me that is part of it and I myself would be interested in exploring more stuff that would interest you as I consider myself adventurous. The right person I'd like to have legit fun with and a nice friendship with and adventure with. That would be ideal.

The absolute ideal would be one-sided monogamy where I give the ideal boyfriend(or more), we vibe and have fun together(non-sexually too ofc); and YOU can have your own things going on with other men with no guilt or anything. We could literally take that as far and extreme as you wanted; for the right and complimentary woman I'd 100% be down. I am pretty convinced its this kind of dynamic I even want for the long haul; I am pretty set to be looking for that "long-haul" person but finding someone complimentary to me in this sense(kinks and adventurous) is extremely rare. So yeah you get all the benefits of a masculine guy with status to whatever extent you want; and get to continue to be free and no reason to feel any guilt or shame. Regardless I'd like this to be a rewarding experience for both of us.