I present as an Alpha male and am naturally charismatic and handsome. I have a reputation to uphold so can't meet my needs and strongest desires in real life. I am good at Doming and I developed my sex that way to make up for my lacking in "size" and distract with that. I do that for the sake of the girl. Right now I have multiple casual things I would be willing to drop for this niche dynamic. In public unless the girl wanted different I would only make her look good presenting as very Alpha and masculine.

In reality I am turned on by humiliation and degradation. Like to the most brutal and harsh extent. Would love a FWB who I could simp for while disappointing with my size and being one of her smaller guys ever and be verbally/mentally bullied and have the size and beta urges acknowledged and made fun of. I am totally an emotional and mental masochist. I'd love to be verbally bullied and emotionaly toyed with and give a girl all the validation and attention she wants in any way she wants in return for this dynamic with zero expectations from her that would develop from a normal sexual and romantic relationship.

This potential FWB could even make me wear a penis sleeve/size enhancer so I am more fulfilling with my good Dom game and I would find that humiliating af. Same with the fact we wouldn't have to worry about me not lasting if I wore one of those extender sleeves. Would be down to give one-sided exclusivity in every sense and make her my only girl and drops the other casual things for this.

I'd love for her to do such a good job on me that I catch feels and become super simp and beta and want to be used as a human ATM. If she was into the dynamic and did it well that would naturally happen and would even be open to and really enjoy a one-sided monogamy where I am totally loyal and she gets with more skilled and better endowed men and is brutally honest about that and why she does it. Would love paying for her dates or lingerie or outfits with her side boyfriends and "dick appointments".

To be honest I could see myself cuffing that type of woman for the long term and being mostly sexless while she enjoys the security of a partner but gets to stay single and enjoying any and all the partners she could ever want. FWB or more or FWB progressing to more both would be great. We could take this as far as she naturally found it enjoyable. But yes this type of dynamic and a girl that would be a good fit for it and enjoy it would be my most ideal wife candidate in reference to my mentioning the longer term. She stays single and gets a boyfriend in every sense but is free too meet needs I can't otherwise. This girl would have to be sexually my compliment; a sadomasochist for it to work. I'd want it to be atleast equally enjoyable to whatever extent for the girl that helps me fulfil such deeply desired need.

I am very much into "the "hotwife" and cuckold type of relationship that has gotten bigger online in recent years. Ideally I want to be that husband. That is the ultimate ideal. But would settle for a FWB and being bullied for my size and emotioanlly tortured with her choosing a date or over-night hang-out with another guy instead of spending time with me while I am exclusive to her. We could take it as far as the RIGHT girl for this wanted to really. I am not yet ready to let family and social circles know that this is what I like most and idealize. It would absolutely DESTROY my social reputation and community reputation.