My horniness and obsession over a deep sloppy blowjob is getting out of hand. I got a good fix a few months ago when I met up with that woman at the adult bookstore, but the need is once again becoming overwhelming.

I need a girl who enjoys having the limits of her throat tested. I want it deep, I want it sloppy. I want the sounds of you choking and gagging and sputtering and drooling to fill the inside of my truck.

I want to sneak out of work at lunchtime and return an hour later with a dazed grin on my face. I want you to take my soul. Twice. I want you to give me the depths of your throat and enthusiasm and I want to talk dirty to you while you do it. I want to tell you what a slut you are, how good you look with my cock in your mouth. I want to empty your head of thoughts and fill it with my dick.

It's an obsession, and it's getting bad. I can't get it out of mind. I work in center city and all this week, every time I'm down on the street, I'm wondering about every woman that walks by. Does she like cock? Will she suck it? Will she suck it because it's a thing that people do, or will she suck it because she loves to? Does she crave it just as badly as I do? Is she the kind of woman that involuntarily moans as soon as she gets her mouth full? Would she swallow my huge load, or would she love to be surprised by its volume and pressure as it splashes across her face?

I know I sound like a pervert. And I am. But this is the most exaggerated version of my dirtiest desires. This is the place where one can put all their carnal cards on the table. So I'm just being honest. I'm also a perfectly capable and responsible man with a normal working life and social life... but that's not who I want to be with you. I want to be the man who gives you the cock you deserve.

I'm 39, white, clean, good looking, and I need to be discreet.