Okay, soo I was 23 way back then.

One of my answer is that, I can see myself having kids by that time. Kinda excited of the daily banters with my supposed to be wife, and the sleepless nights just because my kid is having tantrums every 2am.

So, me right now, doesn't have any of those. We lost our baby, ectopic pregnancy. My gf way back then, idk where she is rn. We've been on and off, and this pandemic shit rn makes it impossible even to have proper connection. LDR, travel ban, she aint got phone. Though I saw her in her sister's vid. Looks like she have connection with her ex rn.

On the semi lighter side, I thought to myself that I should try to have a little business by that time. Like I'm the one investing, and my gf way back then is the one doing the managing stuff as that's one of her forte. My job way back then provides a steady source of income but consumes the life out of you. Imagine pre-planning stuff for the next 3 months, day by day, with little room for fucking up. So yeah, the plan is to fund the supposed to be business until it becomes self-sufficient, then I'll quit the job after.

Me right now? hahahah Never had all of those. Boi I was wrong in so many levels. Hahahah! I fucked up, blame quarter life crisis and my decisions. I was 24-25 way back then when it hits me. Govt starts to have its shot show, saw my colleagues cheering for it, my job way back then is kinda getting suffocating. I have to save my little pride and sanity way back then. I don't wanna be part of the govt that is doing this amd that. I don't wanna be part of the institution that sucks the life out of you and still blame you for being incompetent, in which in reality, we are just tired of the fuck ups. Daily grind was pretty much not worth for me. I was the happy, professional guy in front of our clients everyday, but after that, I was just a lonely man after work, with a little bit of money. Don't want to come home as I don't want to be with my parents anymore. So, the go-to after work is to find my happiness where I should he happy if I do this and that. But nah' I feel like an empty shell way back then. If you watched Bleach anime, with their Hollow characters, thats what I'm feelin way back then. Empty.

I quit the job when I was 25, told myself I still hav me five more years to fuck up and explore. Got a Tesda certificate before I left so that I can start somewhere. Coffee shops were my safe haven way back then, and I want to establish something like that. A place that caters to lost and thirsty souls. A place to stop and think for the next step. A safe space for everyone. Applied here and there in different beverage industries. I'm not really cut into it but I'm willing to learn. I want to experience the things first hand, so that I am not blind to those things when I start to manage and own my business. It was a different field with different people from different walks of life. I fucked up, I learn, I live again. Jumping from one job to another as I'm not really that good. In just two years, I have already 4 jobs in my resume. Not the best part. lol

With this pandemic shit we have, food industry is gone so bad. Lost the job. Tried to survive and start my own business, but in just a week, family got covid. The next month, I lost my sense of taste and smell.Being in the food industry, thise were the two things you need to develop. And I lost them. Felt like I also lost my two year investment.

Well, I recovered, applied to odd jobs. Sales in a stock market thing. Equipped myself with the knowledge of global businesses. Fast forward, I quit. Not all people wants to gamble a $500 amount during these trying times.

Right no, I am here where I started before. The same job that I left three years ago but in a different company. I need money, they need a person like me that have experiences in the job description. We made a deal so we can both survive. Gotta adapt to the changing times and try to live again for one more day each day.