(Reposted as I forgot to specify my campus)

Honestly this post can go sa parehong "rant" and "shifting concern" pero since the emotions are still high and this post lean towards that, edi sige, rant na lang siya muna.

Kakatapos lang ng removals namin sa math 27 and all i can say today is AYOKO NA TALAGA HAHAHAHAHA

Sa sobrang devoid na ako ng pag-asa, tatawanan ko nalang eh 😂😂 (sige i play niyo na ere ni Juan Karlos cause that is my mood rn)

Ayoko na talaga sa deg prog ko and you cannot convince me to stay anymore. I thought kaya ko i-gaslight sarili ko na i'll like it, but every freaking hour passes dito sa elbi, I just feel miserable. Wala akong maayos na support system, tapos ang layo ko pa sa family ko.

I might risk underloading dahil sa pisteng math 27 na iyan (essential ang math series for my higher stat subjects) next sem, pero I'm looking how to restrategize if ever maka singko ako doon (pls wag, Lord diba mahal mo ako?)

I was even diagnosed with MDD recently. If I ever hit a low, ito na talaga yun. I'm used to thugging out my stem subjects since galing ako ng sci high, pero my heart legitimately screams journalism and public service. Talagang HUMSS girlie si ate niyo 😭😭

It's so funny how I ended up in this degree. Every other school na pinag-applyan ko, puro humanities pinag-applyan ko, kaya bakit sa UPCAT, stat nakuha ko??? Like I think this is God's way of humbling me 💀

I love my profs pero fakshet yung course talaga. It's a me problem guys. Not theirs. Ako lang talaga ito 😂

Now begs the question: guys, am I cooked?

Ayon lang. Gusto ko na magshift and I don't know where to start. After enrollment na available program adviser ko 🥲🥲 so till then, iyak nalang si baks.