FIRST EVER POST IM AM NOT GOOD AT WRITING sorry I'm 21 years old ,african american , I'm more tiger woods then waka flocka, I bullshitted HS barley a 2.1 GPA ,I literally never tried just smoked weed and rode the bench (I never worked hard, skip workouts to play videogames and smoke), I work at a fast food joint pizza, i never went to college and I graduated co2012. I don't talk to my friends even tho they always invite me to social events and they all are in college and live on their own, I was always the funny guy. Still Live with both parents but we are not rich by any means , always spotting them money for bills and I don't ever complain about it cuz I'm thankful for them, I wont get financial aid unless I lie. I'm 3 years sober , I don't go out , I wish I could go back in time and beat the shit out of my 15 year old self or even worse just tell him how life is like now... I do to want to go to the military cuz it's bullshit and if something happens to me I can't trust the government to support my family even tho my parents have jobs and make ok money(3 regular cars and a house) But their old and gonna retire in at least 6 years and haven't even really been able to save for retirement cuz we live paycheck to paycheck, I'm done relying on them , I wish I felt this when I was younger but the past is the past. I live in a college town that is huge on CFB, college life parties and stuff life that so it really sucks not being apart of that even tho I know if I made good grades I could have done all that and wouldn't be in this fucked up situation I'm in now. My goals for now in no order Move out, just be independent Get to college Transfer to 4year college Get a real job Lose weight /workout everyday Date, Have my own car I just want my parents to live comfortably when their old I have an idea of what to do but just exactly what the fuck do I have to to just be happy and make decent money. How do these kids have jobs where they do nothing and make more than my whole family , I hate this shit please someone tell me the honest truth about what to do with my life. I don't care what it takes. Edit: Thank you guys so much! I'm gonna try to reply to all of your comments and messages and I'll try to keep you updated. I know there had to be more people in my situation, you not only helped them but you really gave me great advice and an awesome guide to look at in the future. Edit: a list of books I could read out would be pretty cool too.