Inspired by a long post on reddit that I’ve read a few days ago, I won't list my hobbies or interests here. If you want to know more, just ask. But the experience of the past 33 years or so has shown me that the bonds forged by shared interests can be pretty fragile, and that's not what I'm looking for.
I don't have a precise idea of what I'm looking for though. But I do know that, for years, I've had this desire in my heart for a deep, intense friendship, to find someone with whom to share everything without shame. I have 'friends', old acquaintances for whom I have great affection, and with whom I share a few moments of joy, albeit quite rarely. But I don't know any souls with whom mine resonates, and I always feel misunderstood.

As the title says, I'm a practising Catholic, and that's the most important point of this post. What I'm looking for above all is someone with whom I can grow in my relationship with God, and I want it to be the basis of our friendship. I've never had a Catholic friend, I've never known how to make one. I don't know what's really going on with me, but let's just say that I've almost always had social problems, which have varied depending on the period of my life, and which over the last 15 years have tended towards an ever greater solitude. I'm probably suffering from depression, but I only discovered this very recently, despite the evidence. I've also sometimes thought I was on the autism spectrum, because of the way I act, but there's nothing certain about that, and it doesn't really matter in the end. Maybe I'm just a person with a melancholic temperament who can't help over-analysing everything, whether in my external relationships or in my inner life, which tends, in a way, to paralyse me.

In short, what I want is to find a soul with whom I can walk towards God. Despite the perhaps slightly morose tone of this post, I want to share the joys as much as the difficulties, but I simply don't want to hide this dark side. I need help to be, if not a good Catholic, at least simply a Catholic. And on my own, I always feel as if I'm irresistibly slipping back into the same lows.
Over the last few months, I've had to face up to my dark side and discover things about myself that I didn't know about, or perhaps that I had refused to face all these years. I've been very far from God, more than I had ever been since my conversion and I never want that to happen again. I don't want to lie to myself any more. But I don't think I can do it alone.

I don't care if you're a woman or a man, how old you are or where you come from. I have nothing against Protestants or other religions, and in fact it was a young Protestant woman who brought me back to God, but it is very important to me that you are Catholic, or at least Orthodox, so that we speak the same language. You can still write to me if you don't fit in, but I'm afraid that together we won't be able to reach the depth to which I aspire, and to which I hope you aspire too. Bear in mind that my desires may not be what's best for me, and that God may have other plans for us, so feel free to write anyway!

I look forward to talking to you soon.