The kink: sometimes I like to be told my penis is small or pretend I’m being cuckolded. Both of these things are not things I want women to actually think or act on, but it’s more of in my mind I guess. In college there was a girl I dated for a few years that actually would follow through with SPH and use massive toys to satisfy that need for me. But since then I haven’t wanted to bring that up to any women, that’s more of a trust issue.

When I was 13 years old I had my very first girlfriend, we only dated for about 3 or so months so it obviously wasn’t serious and I was just approaching high school. It all started when one day, at my house, things were getting frisky and we were doing a lot of over-the-pants stuff (she never actually saw my penis). I thought that was great and she loved it. A few weeks later I went to my buddy’s house and we were just hanging out on omegle and running around as kids do, then my friends asked me to FaceTime my girlfriend to prove I actually had a girlfriend since she went to another local school. So I did. Needless to say they believed me, but we got to talking about some of the stuff we were doing and how it was good for her right??? Wrong, she told me I was smaller than the last guy she’d been with and it wasn’t satisfying (how could it be, we were 13). I felt true terror and was living every guys worst nightmare. Anyways, this has affected every relationship/entanglement I’ve ever had with a woman since then, I’ve been with around 40-45 women. Now most women who have actually seen my penis say it’s huge and some have even had a tough time sexually due to the size. But I’m not sure how to get rid of this kink, I hate it, but cannot help that it’s something I’m attracted to. I’ve sought therapy and talked with numerous women about it and nothings helped. Any tips?