I am currently at the stage before my second interview where I'm filling out a few more things to send in, but am having second thoughts. When I first applied last august I had nothing lined up; I had just graduated college and the only thing I knew I wanted to do was take a year off from school before going to grad school. My dad suggested I apply so I was doing at least headed one some direction during my time off and thought 'why not?'. I didn't have any responsibilities tying me down and keeping me from going.

But about a month after I applied, I started talking to my best friend from college who had moved to florida for an internship. I had always had a crush on her, but she always had a boyfriend. Anyways, we get to catching up on life and I learned that she and her then current boyfriend had broken up a month earlier. A little farther into the conversation she tells me she's always liked me too, which was awesome to hear as she is the girl of my dreams. Over the next few months we just talk pretty much daily and things are great, but not much could happen since we were about 1,400 miles away from each other. In november I decided to buy tickets to go see her for my birthday in January, and we had a blast. Went to Disney and Universal and she even had another friend of mine at an internship down there surprise visit me. Made me fall for her and her for me. Over the next month we constantly talked about when we'd see each other next cause neither of us could wait. I eventually bought her tickets for her to come up and visit me for a couple days last week and it was absolutely amazing. Never have I felt this way about anyone else before, she's perfect to me

We've talked about me going to the Peace Corps (my departure date is July) and she wants me to go (if invited to serve) as it's a great opportunity, but not really sure if I want to go anymore. Between her and not really wanting to wait 2 more years to go to grad school, I'm not sure if I want to go anymore. I know I shouldn't decide to not go based on her and our relationship since that would most likely lead to resentment down the road, but it's not like this has been a life-long dream of mine to serve and I don't think it would really lead to any strife between us. I half applied to appease my dad and the other half was that I had nothing else better to do. Now I want to go to grad school and see where the two of us are headed.

Just wondering if anyone else was in this situation (or something similar) and how you dealt with it

tl;dr = in the middle of my application process and having second thoughts. I've started to lose interest and have gotten involved with my best friend from college in that time and just not sure if my heart is 100% into it anymore or if it was from the start