First time posting, and pretty new to reddit, in general... I'm mainly posting to see if anyone has recommendations for past life regression sessions in the Los Angeles area. I'm going to try doing some YouTube work first (recommendations for those are welcome too!) but I just know myself, and know that I do better with guidance. Reading through this thread, I also feel compelled to share my story.

As many others have posted, I've felt my whole life that I am an old soul, and have been told that by almost everyone that meets me. I've always been incredibly independent, introspective, and intelligent. At just 20, I was more emotionally mature than most 30 yr olds. I'm 22 now, and my growth has been exponential.

I've struggled with major depressive disorder, anxiety, eating disorders, drug abuse, dissociation, etc for most of my life. And I've only just discovered that I actually have borderline personality disorder. Now all of this means I have been hospitalized for suicide attempts so many times, I've actually lost count. I've been to hell and back, truly.

About three years ago, I had met a therapist who had me do an inner child visualization. This is when I first started to turn inward and start my spiritual journey. Not much happened then - I had to stop therapy due to insurance and at that point was still deep in the throes of trauma, and wasn't very motivated to do any work. But after hitting rock bottom a couple of years ago, I was tired of being in so much constant pain. So I started to heal myself with a few CBT techniques I had picked up here and there. It was slow going at first, but I was actually doing it on my own!

Recently, this process has started to speed up immensely. I got into tantric hatha yoga, 90 min every day of asana, pranayama, and kriya meditation (hoping to start mantra soon). I've always been very into astrology, but I had a reading done recently by an "esoteric astrologer." I had a reiki massage done, and my reiki master said my guides were telling her I was a very powerful soul and that it was time for me to awaken. Unfortunately, this was right before the health crisis got serious, so I haven't been able to go back after that first session.

I've been getting the same message from different sources, repeatedly and explicitly - I am a powerful healer, a portal for sacred light to come to this world. In the reading especially, my astrologer noticed my south node was in Pisces, which she said means I have lived many lives and already learned how to dissolve my ego - essentially, I am pretty advanced in my karmic journey already. I also have an Aquarius stellum, and 12th house stellum, all signs of powerful connection to the spiritual, astral, "higher" plane.

And I truly do feel this. I have always been very sensitive to others' energy, and my emotions are always at an 11 - I don't feel anything lightly. I have been told often in one form or another that I have a lightness to me. I tend to attract broken people. I have an intense and strong calling to help others. In the past, I have poured too much of myself into this calling, without realizing what I was or the power I had, and have struggled with various unhealthy forms of escapism, to get away from the strong emotions and energies of others. I have had a constant strong of physiological illnesses, which I have good reason to believe are tied to my spiritual experiences. Now, I feel I have awoken and am in much better control of my energetic field. I have noticed the people coming into my life have changed - they, too, are mature, spiritually enlightened, emotionally healthy, on their own kind of journey. I have a greater sense of support and partnership from those in my life now - we are on parallel journeys - as opposed to the constant feeling of being drained and the toxicity I used to have around me. I feel totally capable of healing myself and others, and am excited to finally be aligned with my soul's purpose!

However -- and this is the reason I am searching for guidance now -- I feel like there is still a piece missing. I have found my purpose, I feel I have truly healed most, if not all, of my past wounds, and I feel power surging through me, ready to be wielded; but I still don't feel whole. I feel an increasingly urgent call to connect to my past lives. I have a sense that (despite my very clear purpose as a healer) I used to be a powerful warrior, or even royalty, with a strong connection to the Aztecs (my middle name is actually in Nahuatl). Maybe it's just my god complex haha but it's something that I've never been able to shake - even in the face of a calling that is so opposite of that notion. I think I need to know who I was to be able to fully realize my purpose and fall into my role as a healer of humanity in this lifetime.

So - anyone know of any people who might be able to guide me in LA? WOC are preferred, but I'm really just looking for someone credible, honest, and genuine.