Well I finally bought some tape diapers like real ones. I realized I can make them discreet I just have to pick the right clothes anyways I bought some depends because they always fitted me good and there only 1 of two options in my local pharmacy. The only other ones are Tena slips and they have weak tabs and there's only two of them, depends have 3. And there more comfy I'm not sure why. But anyways I woke up this morning and I was really craving a farmers wrap so I decided I'd make the 20 minute walk to Tim hortons but I figured I mine as well wear a diaper to see how they feel when walking longer distances. I didn't even plan on wetting or messing myself but I had the mindset that if it happens it happens. I secretly kind of wanted too so I didn't go to the bathroom before I left. I sort of had to go but it wasn't an overwhelming urge. Anyways I put on my diaper clothes aka my tight underwear to hold it all together and my long John's "leggings" and pulled it up tight and put on a rather baggy pair of these dark blue jeans I didn't care about. I also wore my hoodie that's way too big to hide the small diaper bulge. The diaper felt nice it wasn't so big it was saggy but just tight enough it stayed in place. Anyways I set off and I surprisingly heard no krinkle sounds and it was rather quiet. It wasn't long before the small urge turned into a bigger urge and I didn't pee this morning either so thst was slowly creeping up I could see the Tim Hortons so I figured I wouldn't hold onto my bladder and just let it out when my body wanted too. It felt so good to not have to hold it and I did stop to look at my phone when I was wetting just incase it leaked cus of all the movement. The warm sensation filled the front of my diaper up pretty full so I slightly spreaded my legs and I could feel the warm flow of pee flow back to the seat of my diaper. It wasn't a huge pee but it sure filled it up quite a bit. I had the urge to mess myself and I wasn't cramping in the stomach or anything I wanted to let it out bit by bit and so I decided to do the same thing and just not hold it and let it come out on its own. It honestly felt really good to just not hold on and I didn't even feel like I was going to for a second till I kept walking then I felt it slowly creeping out. Everything was pretty tight so it just kinda started slipping out but stopped as soon as it hit my diaper and I didn't wanna push so I just had a mess halfway out for a minute, I ended up abandoning the Tim Hortons idea and went to this public park thing and just walked around for a minute. I tried pushing a little so I stopped walking and realized I had the classic toddler pooping stance so I kept walking till I got behind a tree that was blocking me. I didn't wanna push to hard I just wanted to get it started so I pushed a little and I could feel it slowly filling up a little , it was pretty solid so I gave a few more slight pushes then kept walking. I started walking back towards my house which was like a 10 minute walk and the whole time this mess was seeping out. It was pretty solid to this point then I felt it slowly coming out easier and easier. It was getting more and more mushy and it spread around quite a bit and felt great. I ended up stopping at a convenience store on the way back and I didn't really smell anything till I got in there. I was buying my stuff aka my chips and I felt like I had to pee so I just didn't hold it and let it out it felt really nice. The diaper was pretty full but not leaky kinda full, after that I just made the short walk home. Seen my roommate in the kitchen so I quickly dashed to the bathroom and got in the shower. Then just cleaned up and got rid of the evidence. I really regret not taking pictures. Anyways that was my morning