This has been bothering me for longer than I'd like to admit. I am not exactly referring to "A great series is over, how do I cope?" (though as you will see later on in what I'm trying to explain it is still kind of related).

I really hope someone else can sympathize or feels similar to how I feel because I just feel really weird T3T

I referring to the need to give yourself closure because of some of the following reasons (but not limited to, these are off the cuff examples):

• Story ends badly: Yeah, uh, Hakuoki.......

• Your fav route/boy is not considered "canon": Victor, my sweet precious cinnamon roll, you deserved better.

• Basically everyone dies: In Hakuoki, you are basically condemning the rest of the guys you didn't pick

• There are loose threads that will never get tied: In CR, Van only finds out the truth about his family's death in his route and Lupin's. Since Finnis is dead in the others and Aleister skeedadles, he will literally eternally carry this misgiving and still think Aleister is a good guy And don't even get me started on the implications of Victor's route in FB.

• Your fav character was given a half-assed route/route that should have been romantic but wasn't really (or was, once again, overshadowed by the canon guy): Though not released out of Japan, the fandisc for TaishoxAlice where you can "romance" Ookami and Ryoushi but it's not really romance...pls give Ookami a break.

• Writing/plot was a hot mess: The Charming Empire. When it was over I was left with the feeling that there should be more.

• A guy you thought should be romanced didn't have a route : I have respect for Pendleton from London Detective Mysteria lol he did a lot of heavy lifting.

Basically, you feel like something was lacking and this bothers you. How to cope?

Not many ways. You could lay down, try not to cry, cry anyway, which pretty ineffective. You could get absorbed in the other materials from the series, but usually these carry the same problems as the original material. You could basically try to distract yourself with another game, but that only continues the cycle if something else happens in that game. You could get absorbed in the fandom, which for me I am having a lot of trouble with, because, in the end I can't see it as canon. When some fanworks (drawings and writing) are SO good. Could be on par with the actual source material. I want them to be, but they're not! It feels like broth vs soup kind of dilemma, I want that reassurance that it is "real" and can not be given it, if that makes sense. But then that brings my thoughts to headcanons/fanons, which is basically what YOU think is canon. It's not like it is going to matter to the creator, who doesn't even know who I am, if I think differently. What are they gonna do? Shoot me(Although some non-otome fandoms give this impression >_>)? I've written in the past and if someone came up to me and told me they loved the story but they always felt x and so they made fanfiction of it, I wouldn't really be bothered and would actually take it as a compliment that they got so invested in my work it made THEM think and create...

Sorry if this sounds like a silly concern. I guess it is exacerbated by the fact that I have never gone for the "canon" guy first... ^"