2 years ago i was 7 years into an everyday heroin/fentanyl habit. By this point I was banging as much as a gram-2 grams of rerocked but extremely good fent every day. Nothing at all mattered except avoiding dope sickness. My girlfriend who is now my fiance never gave up on me even though she has never done anything stronger than weed. Constant lying, constant trying to spin reality to hide the severity of my addiction. Every day was another day she should have left. I've now been clean since October of 19. We live in a very affluent neighborhood 8-10 hours south of where I'm from in one of the biggest vacation hotspots on the east coast. I can see the ocean from my patio. 2 years ago I was living in a basement room with no windows. I drive a very nice suv, 2 years ago I had no vehicle because I had crashed mine so many times copping dope while there were literally no brakes on the car and I had worn out the e-brake, I stopped by taking my foot off the gas, going into neutral then slamming into park. I have been working in trade I love since I've been in the new location and the beginning of the year I start a job which is essentially a dream job, I'll be getting paid well to do what is a hobby for me. 2 years ago I was jobless and my only financial goals were hustling hard so I had something to wake up with the next day. Don't give up on yourself, things can and will get better with just a little bit of try. Life is better now than I could have ever imagined and I kick myself every day wondering where I'd be at if I didn't lose those years to crippling addiction. Trust me, the grass is greener on the other side. I was convinced I would be a balls to the wall addict until I died and I can't believe how foolish I was to be ok with that. If I can find redemption all of you reading this can. Your family, those that love you and ultimately yourself deserve it. Take care of yourself guys, those of you still struggling are in my thoughts.