To preface: I've been doing OF for about 7months, I don't make a lot, but the income I get from it is enough to cover some of my expenses like books for university (since I'm a student). Becoming a creator wasn't a rush decision, I had previously looked through my options with part-time jobs but most of them (if not all) required that I had a drivers license (which I don't have). Also I'm like a victorian child lol I get sick quite often and I don't have the physical or mental strength to have "normal" jobs. Being a waitress, babysitter, cashier etc (even part time) wouldn't have given me all that free time to study and have a life (socially speaking). Becoming a creator is mentally draining but I'm getting better at managing burnouts, and it gives me the freedom to focus on other things.

2 weeks ago I told my therapist what I'm doing and told her that dating has become harder than it used to be because I'm an online SW. She said something along the lines of "why are you selling your body?". I've tried to explain to her all the reasons above, plus the fact that I'll be sexualized whether I want to or not, so I'd rather make a buck out of it. She didn't budge and doubled down playing "devil's advocate" (her literal words) saying that I don't "value" myself and asking why am I so needy for male attention and validation... I am not, it's literally just about the money...

I was already having a depressive episode, and that session with her made it even worse.

I've never cared of what other people might think of me but I would have never expected to be "slvt shamed" by my own therapist. I get where she's coming from but I literally explained to her why I do it. I've been seeing her regularly for the past 4 years, she's the only therapist I liked and felt comfortable with but after the last session I'm wondering if I should go to someone who's more SW friendly.

I'm seeing her again today, I'll try to voice my thoughts and discomfort and see her response.

Do some of you go to therapy? Does your therapist know about your job? What would you do if you were me?

To clarify: I'm not ashamed of what I do, and I'm definitely not in the wrong industry and I don't plan to stop. I feel distraught because someone who I trust completely and to whom I've shared all of my deepest traumas and fears for 4 years, has now judged me so harshly... It hurts a lot because it feels deeply personal

EDIT: Thank you all for your kind and supportive comments❤️ I've talked with my therapist, we didn't clear up everything so I'm currently unsure on how to proceed, I might start seeing another therapist (to whom I feel comfortable talking about this job) at the same time and have 2 separate "journeys" (sorry for mistakes im not an english native speaker).