Do you ever look over at your spouse sitting on the other side of the couch and wonder why? Well I do. I wonder why she's sitting over there. I wonder why she would rather be on her phone than spend time with me. I wonder why she seems so cold and distant most of the time. Is she struggling? Why won't she talk to me? Does she even love me anymore? Why won't she touch me or want me to touch her? WTF am I even doing? I’m lonely. I think a lot of it is in my head and I over analyze a lot but it’s hard not to.

Thats is what I think about almost nightly. It shouldn't be this way and I wonder where we went wrong. I've tried to talk to her in the past about my feelings and she doesn't see anything wrong. She blames it on our busy and stressful lives. Work, the kids, money, the house.... etc.... I agree but we still have to make time for us. We need to be priority number one. I told her that if we take care of ourselves, and focus on our own well being, we will only be better parents to our kid. It doesn't matter, she doesn't get it. I've given up talking to her. I don't believe in the D word and I don't like to say it. Anxiety meds have helped me so far. I've been focusing on my own well being now and doing things that make me happy.

So here I am.... resorting to reddit to find a married woman in a similar situation as I am in for companionship. I am looking for more than companionship. I am looking for it all.

I am looking for lots of messages back and forth all day. I want to look at my phone and see messages from you asking how my day was, what I had for lunch. I want to talk openly about our struggles with our SO and fantasize about if they weren't around and we could run away together and just have our way with each other all day every day and nothing else in the world matters. I want the physical side of things, and I want the emotional side of things.

I've had 2 other online relationships that lasted for 6 months or so. Its rough out there, I get it. Lots of ghosting, and lots of BS. I'm better than all of that. I will never ghost you, I will always be 100% honest with you. I don't hold back, everything is on the table.

The sex is one of the biggest parts of my marriage that I am missing and I have a weird feeling that its one of yours as well if you're reading this. I want there to be lots of flirting, lots of dirty talk, photos, videos, etc.... the sky is the limit. I want all of that in time when we have already developed some sort of connection and trust. If any of that bothers you, I’m not your guy.

If you're even considering messaging me, what is stopping you?! Lets focus on the future, and focus on our own happiness and help each other get there! In your response, answer me this question......

You had a day to yourself, to do whatever you wanted with absolutely zero consequences, and no one would ever find out.... what are you doing? Anything goes.

Or.... if you prefer something on the lighter side......

If you could be any celebrity, who would it be and why?

Talk to you soon. ;)