I wish I could go somewhere, where I could give permission for people to put me in a coma, and then take care of what I’m too overwhelmed to do. I have lost 150 pounds before but in this storm that has been my life I’ve put on another 20 but because I’m so messed up it’s so hard to control my cravings and I just hate looking at myself. Can’t find the energy and drive I used to have to work out. If I could be in a coma where they can make sure I’m not able to overeat and lose that weight while I’m sleeping I’d be in heaven. Have to have an OT move my body and keeep my mobility and waking up to a smaller body and having a break from life I’d probably be more motivation to go back to lifting. I’d also go through all my withdrawals without noticing them and hopefully have level hormones and a level brain chemistry. I wish but alas it’s not a thing and so I’ll just be fat and miserable over here 👈