I have a long story to tell. I have been alcohol free for 201 days. Man, my buttons were pushed today. My BD told me about a month ago that my son doesn’t need his father but I do and I could figure everything out. Well that’s exactly what I did because I don’t need him and I never have. I was never in a relationship with him and i haven’t wanted to be with him in years. He’s seen me struggle though every relationship and be a drunk mess all the while. Well idk if he knows or not but his own father is the one who got me addicted to alcohol 10 years ago. Not to mention abused me. I don’t know if he knew but he does know. I am tired of being disrespected. Im always the bad guy. Am i wrong for just wanting peace and wanting to stay sober. All you need to do is be there for your son. As far as me being addicted to alcohol and who got me like that, that situation is so much bigger than my BD. I almost died because of alcohol. My son almost died. I am sober. I have found the God of my understanding. I have so many stories to tell.