For the last few months I’ve realized that I just have to continuously make sacrifices and give up my ability to be happy and realize that I have to be okay with the fact that I will never truly be happy and just have to live with being content forever and never happy. Things will never go the way I want them too, not at work, not at home and I guess I’m the one that put myself there by constantly trying to be consciously aware of peoples feelings and how things would affect them. I try my hardest to make sure everyone is comfortable and good even at my own detriment but lately it’s felt more like I’m spinning out of control and people are just upset with me 24/7 because I’m not continuing to take more and more off their plate. I have taken so much and ask for nothing in return but the fact that I have taken it all and am not taking as much anymore is apparently wrong for me to do. I’m just tired and I want to cry.