I want to preface this by saying that this is me yelling into the void. I'm not really looking for advice because ultimately I know that I have no choice but to keep moving and I'll eventually figure something out. That being said, I've been in this hellish cycle recently where I have these wonderful moments of hope only have them pretty much immediately pulled out from under me.

The most recent instance of this involves a wilderness therapy job I've been trying to land for months. Last week I heard from my prospective supervisor that he had an opening and specifically wanted me to fill it. I was really excited as I have a lot of friends working for that company and it's genuinely a cause I believe in. I've also been out of work for the past couple months so I was glad to finally have an opportunity to start working again. To make a long story short, I found out today that because I have a DUI on my record that I essentially can't work there. One stupid mistake ruined what was essentially my dream job.

Like I've said, I'm just at a complete loss. It seems like every time I'm close to finding something truly fulfilling, something happens and whatever it is doesn't work out. I've been trying to figure out what my next move is going to be but I honestly just want to to give up. It feels like my strength/will is perpetually being tested and I don't know how much more I can handle.