So I was in a 6 year relationship with someone and we broke up about 2 months ago. And to be honest I’m not doing good… I know it’s wrong but I’ve been using sex as a coping mechanism to feel alive. But honestly I’m dead inside. I miss the connection, and the closeness, but at the same time I don’t want it. We have a kid and I talk to her almost everyday. But the feelings I have for my ex come and go. When they do show up it hurts, and it makes me want to kill myself. I don’t because I have to be there for my daughter. But the pain, the hurt never really went away. I’ve tried connecting with other people make friends, get new people in my life, work constantly, but it’s a distraction from the pain. Do I still love her I do, but the feeling isn’t mutual. I just want to pain to stop visiting me when I get to a good point. Nothing else I just wanted to share this. Get it out in the open to anyone who is willing to listen.