I’ve never been the one to process breakups well, each one just hurts more than the last. They said time heals all but it still hurts as bad.

I met someone online and we got into this situationship. I didn’t think I’d be the one to ever get into an long distance/online relationship but I’ve never met anyone as special as her. The emotions I felt for someone I never met were so much more stronger than anyone I’ve dated in real life. It lasted online a few months and due to the pandemic, she was unable to continue speaking to me.

She expressed that she didn’t want me to message her, so I am respecting her wishes. It kills me every day because I want to reach out so badly.

It’s been two years and I’m still not over it. I feel so stupid that I can’t let go from something that lasted a few months and I had never met them in person. What if I can never let go? I’ve tried to date other people but I’m never emotionally available.