This might sound shallow for some people, but all of my life I have been bullied because I was so ugly. People always point out my insecurities, they're always mean, always hateful to me just because they don't like how I look, the worse thing is? I have good-looking parents and all my siblings are very good-looking too. I remember when I was young the relatives would gossip like "why does she looks so different from her family?" "probably adopted" and then laughed, but the the thing I couldn't forget they said was "There's a saying that in a dozen of eggs, there will be 1 spoiled egg" and that egg was me, it took a really huge toll on me mentally and emotionally.

Being ugly affected on how I grow up, I've always thought that I'm nothing and never really mattered, this led me to being depressed and having anxiety, and I've become a very shallow, toxic and jaded person. I couldn't hold a proper relationship with my friends or siblings because I have anger issues and I blow out on a very tiny inconvenience. I couldn't hold any job too because I get anxious and will tell myself I couldn't do it because I'm useless, I've let go of 3 wonderful jobs and other opportunities because all of the issues I have within me.

So anyways all my life all I wanted was to be prettier, I become better now, I've improved but far from the ideal pretty woman, it makes me very sad looking in the mirror everyday and not seeing what I like, I wish there was a nuke button to end everything.