I’ve recently been going through probably one of the worst times i’ve had in a while. I was in a relationship with my partner for a few months until suddenly they broke it off with me during our break when we went to different schools. They told me they still cared and wanted to stay friends, and that they weren’t even interested in relationships at the moment. Next thing I know they’re posting pictures of another girl only a few weeks later and they stop talking to me completely, and block me from the account where they were posting those pictures. I thought they still cared about me, and this is what they do even though I haven’t said or done anything to them. I have no ill will towards them but this is probably the most hurt i’ve ever felt. One day they told me I was the best partner they ever had and that they loved me so much. and now it feels like those were just sweet nothings. this is now making me completely question everything about the relationship as well as myself. Because of this, my anxiety and depression levels have been extremely high. I’ve been feeling so awful my stomach feels sick all day, that I can’t eat anything other than antacids. I’ve gotten physically ill multiple times and even had to go to the hospital. Quite honestly, I don’t know what to do anymore, I’m trying so hard to take care of myself but there are many times where I don’t know if i’ll ever fully recover from this. The idea of even getting into another relationship one day makes me want to throw up. This feels so much like the “one that got away.” This wasn’t how I expected my freshman year of college to be.