So I got the news today that my cat was diagnosed with lymphosarcoma or cancer. At first when I got the message I wasn't surprised, because I knew that there could be a possibility of cancer.

But after letting the news sink in to my mind, and looking at my cat as she naps in the sunlight. The wave of emotions and thoughts of losing her, hit me like a ton of bricks. I didn't know what to do for a moment, I felt lost in the world.

I've experienced the lost of losing family and friends, but as heartless it may seem I've never shown a tear of sadness for them but was sadden by it. But hearing the news of my furry companion being diagnosed with cancer, made me shed tears for her which has never happen before.

I guess you say I'm going through something but idk what you would call it, griefying or stages of lost. But after wiping away my tears, I'm looking to do what I can to make her life better before that time comes for her.