I just have to say this because it’s been on my mind pretty much since graduation. 26F, I am basically 4 years post grad (bachelors) and I studied a science heavy topic. I thought I’d go the professional route, but I didn’t, because I loved the science more than the application. I wanted to go into research perhaps but knew there’d not be much money.

Because of this choice, and not much direction after college, I am now at a tech company doing customer service. It’s a fast growing start up, so not as mundane as you would think, but I can help to think of my college days.

I felt like life had so much possibility. That I had these dreams that weren’t too far fetched. I would wake up excited to take a damn test sometimes. Knowledge gave me life and learning brought out the best in me. The person that I remember seems so far away from me now. I was truly happy.

I’m hoping one day I can feel this feeling of pure bliss. It certainly wasn’t all rainbows, but even just being able to meet new people each day and you’re all working towards a similar goal of graduation and going from freshman to senior. I could ramble all night. I can’t even really get the words out to express this type of feeling I’m trying to express. I think it’s just wonder. There was so much to discover about not just a degree but about yourself and others. I also went to a big public university that had tons of school spirit (SEC) so it’s just the camaraderie that I miss.

I’m writing this in my solo apartment, which I am proud to have and can afford, but can make it seem a bit more dismal.

Anyway, I just wanted to share this. Maybe some of you feel the same. I kinda think I’m crazy or just living in the past, because so many people seem to be having these great careers and experiences post grad that somehow I missed out on.