Before you I didn't take my relationships very seriously. I was young and dumb at the time. I talked to people online all the time for no other reason than to get my rocks off. Until i met you. The first month or two was great until that summer you started getting depressed or scared. I thought it wouldn't last long so I didn't stop my old habits. But then, when you cam back from the beach trip, everything changed. We fell hard for eachother and I actually stopped all of my online activity. I was about you 100% and you were all about me. After about 2 years I realized that I could really make us work for life, which scared the shit out of me. I started doing my online thing again for a while until you ended up catching me. It was a rough patch for us and it destroyed your trust in me. But we made it through it. We worked on talking about our feelinngs more and eventually moved in with eachother. I felt like Things were going great and nothing would stop us from living our dreams besides time and money. So i turned my focus to working and making as much as possible to set us up well so we could have our family. I see now that in this focus I stopped showing you the love and attention you needed and wanted from me. So you started hanging out with your friends from high school again. I felt something was off but I shrugged it off and kept my focus on work. That was until December 12th. You said our relationship was over. You told me it was because you still didn't trust me and had to constantly reassure yourself i wanted to be with you. You also said you felt like you had just become my girlfriend and not yourself. I fought and fought for over a week but in the end you said you were still going to leave but wanted to wait until fter the holidays. I accepted this and tried to stay happy. That was until Sunday the 20th. You said you were going to go look at Christmas lights with one of your girl friends from work. I was fine with it and you left. A couple hours later of no texts or snapchats or anything I started looking through your ipad looking at photos of us. Only to find screenshots of a conversation between you and a guy you work with talking about a different guy giving you a bunch of attention and stuff. I asked you to come home so we could talk. No response. Several hours go by and i start going crazy finding more and more. I finally start blowing up your phone yelling at you, pissed off, until you responded. However, instead of trying to explain, you just said that you were talking to him and you'd get your things in the morning. That night i stayed up all night getting your things together feeling you were actually with this guy. The next day I was off but had some running around to do which is when you cam and got your things. The next day i asked you why you stayed if you were talking to the guy. You didn't really respond just saying that you starting to have feelings for him was what made you THINK you needed to end it. I guess in my eyes the difference between what you and i did was, mine had no real feelings involved in it. I didn't want to date the people i talked fo. It was all purely sexual. But you actually liked him and had fallen for him. Yet you never truly explained everything to me. I guess i really just want some real closure with you.