First ever post on reddit. For a large portion of my young adult life I was a borderline sex addict. I spent my nights going on the casual encounters pages looking for someone desperate enough to have sex with me. I was at a point in my life where I felt I needed to prove to myself that I had some value as a human being, even if just as a sex toy. I don't feel pride but I also don't feel shame. It's awkward.

Fast forward seven years, I now have an amazing marriage to my soulmate, good career, happy future etc but now have what sounds like survivors guilt. Why did I have such a good outcome when those around me suffered who went down such paths? I have no regrets about what I've done but feel bad because I DID get away relatively unscathed. I've told my family about my life I've been keeping secret and they were supportive and even proud. Not the reaction I was expecting at all. I feel guilty, like I got away with something I didn't deserve to get away with. ☹️