It is becoming increasingly clear to me, that I have an anxious and/or avoidant attachment style. I am obviously horrified about abandonment, to the point, where I don’t want to meet anyone ever again and I’m not trying to save and letting my old relationships die off. I have decided to get therapy, but I don’t feel like it will lead to anything, though I will give ut my best shot. I was abused emotionally and physically as a child and I may have imagined a research saying, that people abused as children are more likely to be abused in the future by new people, but I can’t be sure anymore. Is this true? My understanding is that people will become good/better in things that they keep doing, so I feel like meeting people would help, but at the same time I’m afraid that I will only attract people who are not good for/to me and may possibly end up hurting me. I see myself questioning anyone who is interested in me in any way, after all why would a healthy person do that? But I don’t trust my thinking anymore. I don’t know what to do anymore, other than to isolate myself completely.