2020 has really been testing me. I broke up with my long term gf, started an addiction to cigarettes, lost my job, almost became homeless and my depression nearly sent me to the hospital. I actually thought I was going to die. I was so close to killing myself.

I’m so glad I didn’t. I kicked my toxic ex out and now I’m in the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in. I feel insecure sometimes, but the woman I’m with is so patient and kind to me. I’m not smoking cigarettes anymore and my body feels better. I vape when I have cravings and I’m trying to get the nicotine level down. So much better from the 5 cigarettes a day I was doing for the past 6 months. I got my job back, I’m not homeless, and I’m going to graduate school in less then a month.

I actually started to cry today, realizing my accomplishments. I had no idea I would get this far. I still struggle with depression and my social anxiety makes it hard to leave the house sometimes but I’m alive and I’m trying.