I’ve never really been the person to cancel plans. I’m the type of person that stays committed no matter what once I say something unless something significant makes me have to cancel. But lately in my life, I have gotten so used to people constantly cancelling last minute on plans that it’s kind of sad. Like it’s more of an expectation for them to cancel than actually commit to any type of hang out or date we were supposed to do. I’ve been depressed for over 3 years now with some terrible downs and decent amounts of ups, but I have noticed that with the amount of times people cancel on me just affects my mental health. It makes me just want to curl up in a corner and just be lonely. I was always an introvert but it’s nice to go out and do something with someone. I hate the effect of people canceling cuz it makes me feel sort of worthless in a sense. (Yes I know you shouldn’t judge yourself based on others...) With covid and everything, the small number of friends I have feel like it’s decreasing to even less and I hate how if I don’t try initiating then literally nothing happens. At the end of day, I feel like it’s best if I just isolate myself, it’s not like I matter anyways....