I was that typical high school kid. I wasn’t anything special. I had a few decent close friends who I can still say to this day are true friends. Marching band all those guys were ok. They didn’t really care. I have the memories but that’s it. They’re doing there own thing. However the 2 people I really hung around. The one guy I can tell you instantly fell off the bandwagon. He wasn’t anywhere close to being a friend constantly showed it and was just a user I caught on quick and got that shit out of my life. My other “friend” I felt bad for and out of being who I am kept contact. He very rarely if ever messaged first. I’d text him to see how he was ask about life from time to time. I talked to him yesterday and that’s when I knew that I was basically trying to be in that club you absolutely wanted to be in but no matter how hard you tried you never really fit in. While I’m in my actual adult life attempting to build something for myself and possible future family this friend hasn’t exactly grown up. Gaming gaming gaming that’s all he does. He only has a job so he can game and hates it. I was ridiculed by my friend because I have never played nor had any interest in Minecraft. I was made to feel ashamed that I had an attempt to play it. Like really dude you were this way in high school. You haven’t changed one bit. I’m not sad I’m not upset. I just can’t believe I tried as hard as I did for people who don’t or will ever give a flying fuck about me.