I thought in recent months my depression was finally starting to subside and I was starting to feel better. My grades were up, I was doing well at work, and I felt like I might be ready to start dating ( I am 25m and have never dated due to low self esteem preventing me from making an effort.) There were some things that were preventing me from acting on this, but I felt like I could start soon.

Then I had the dream I had last night. I don’t remember much since I woke up, but I remember the feeling of being surrounded by friends I don’t have and being with a women I really like that does not exist. I remember talking, laughing and dancing. I remember not feeling alone and feeling happy.

When I woke up, all of those feelings went away and I was left alone and miserable. This dream helped me realized while I might have made progress, my depression is far from gone. I need to feel the way I did in my dream in the real world. The problem is I have no idea how to make friends or summon the courage to ask a girl out. I am not the person I was in my dream and I can’t remember how to be that person