I feel like I'm the only one around me that's trying to improve themselves. I live in a apartment with 3 other people where I am rarely seen because I don't want to associate with them. After all, they constantly have a problem with every action that i do and its been making me question myself and my beliefs lately and after reaching out to other friends I've come to the conclusion that I'm doing the best I can for an 18-year-old (m). I visit my apartment maybe once or twice a week and feel like shit every time because I'm constantly downed by the people i live with and it is so bothersome because i only want the best for them. I recently purchased a 2008 BMW that broke down the second day after i bought it and instead of telling me that's fine or something like that they were like yeah i mean it was too good to be true i mean your just 18 and your moving too fast or comments like i mean to know you have an expensive parking lot holder. another problem with the situation i have is that it's been raining and my windows can't let down and i recently got back and see that the plastic i have has holes in it letting rain getting into the car... the car im gonna use to take everyone where they need to go to save them the extra money on uber but now i digress. They have problems with the way i talk but i haven't talked to them actually in months just simple one-word responses or speaking to other people. (which they comment on constantly) I feel like im at such a loss because these are people who say they love me but i haven't felt this kind of sadness since i stayed with my parents it makes me feel like nothing i do will ever be enough. I can't be passionate about something without comments raa=ining in from them. one example is that I'm an avid super smash bro's player and I bring people to play against home sometimes and they now mock me when someone asks to play a game together saying "oh watch lets play smash." Im starting to lose hope for my friendship to continue with these people after i get my car fixed. I view the apartment as somewhere my items are stored and that's it.

It's the home it once was in the begging and I'm honestly fine with that i just feel like I'm losing myself. I mean i never have felt like i fit in around anyone besides these people and now they view me as an enemy and i feel like they constantly talk about me behind my back but honestly, im not gonna worry about it ill just try to improve myself until I'm happy with the results.