I had been working in the service industry for years and finally got a great job in my field of choice in my dream city. I had health insurance, paid time off, and a balanced work/home life for the first time and was even being told I was getting an early raise because I had been doing such a great job.

My savings finally reached over $1,000.

My eating disorder has even improved as my mental health has gotten better. I was going to start therapy for the first time.

I was getting my shit together.

I’m now laid off and concerned about how I’m going to pay my bills and still afford to eat. I haven’t been working in my new state long enough to collect unemployment. I can’t even go back to the service industry (my permanent backup so I thought) because that has collapsed too.

Not sure what this post is about, but I haven’t had the courage to tell anyone in my family yet.

I will probably be more optimistic in a few days, but today feels helpless.