I’m alone. Literally and figuratively. Alone in my apartment, alone in my town, alone in my dreams for my future. I got broken up with three days before my birthday and I have spent my 21st on my couch watching tv because I honestly don’t have friends to go out with and I’m not trying to go out alone. I’m dreading seeing my family tomorrow even though they’re driving two hours to see me and be with me I just... I don’t want to see them. We’ve had a rocky past and I just don’t feel like the visit will be filled with support and gentleness like I need. My best friend in the world lives in another country and I can’t just call her to come over and hug me while I lose my shit. Due to a seven hour time difference the only way to really talk to her is to wait until five am and call her when she’s at work (nanny, the kids nap around that time).

I know this shot is supposed to make you stronger but I literally just don’t even want to put in the work right now and I’m so tired of being alone.