I want to be done with dating. I don't think I can be a good enough partner for someone who would want me to be with them for the rest of their life. And yet, here I am wanting someone, anyone to love and to keep for myself. I'm a hypocrite and I hate it. I don't want to hurt anyone else by dating them and I don't want to break promises that I make to them even if at the time I feel like I could have kept it but end up being weak. I don't want another relationship but a huge part of me still wants to be in one again and be in it for the rest of my life. FWBs and hook ups aren't enough but to completely shut myself out from anyone hurts even more. I just don't know what to do