I've been experiencing this suffocating sense of loneliness this past year and its been getting to me more and more as time continues to pass. I know it has a lot to do with my current position in life (job, living situation, financial status etc...) So I've been trying to improve myself to improve my life but its a tough grind and I've been feeling really alone. My work schedule is isolating (midnight to 8am thursday to monday) and its been getting in the way of my social/artistic life (I'm an artist with many artist friends that perform reguarly). I live with family so I feel like I never have any true privacy or a space of my own to have friends over. I don't make enough money to really do/buy the things I want and still afford my basic necessities. I feel stuck. Bored. Powerless. Stagnant. Alone. I'm constantly surrounded by others, many of which I truly care about, but its becoming hard to connect with them. Hard to care about anything anymore. I wouldn't go so far as to say that I suffer from depression, but I do feel myself starting to give up. I just wish I had someone I could talk to. Someone to pull me out of myself. Show me something new. I find myself wishing I not only had someone to vent to, but someone to be happy with too. I want someone to share those small victories with. My life ain't all bad, but its been kicking my ass for sure. This is a rough patch that I know I'll get through. I just wish I had somebody to help center me along the way. Thanks for reading this. Peace.