I needed a ride. Never thought it'd end up like this. You're 30 years my senior but why does my soul yearn for you so? We are from different eras but we can laugh at the same jokes, talk about serious things, and turn each other on. We are so alike and have gone through similar things. Our traumas link us but also our unhealthy coping mechanisms. I have a pattern of loving the wrong men and you're clearly wrong for me but your company feels so right. I know I have no future with you. I am just starting my life while you're almost done. I have a boyfriend who's supportive and loving but is continents away. You have a long-term gf but you're cheating on her anyway. I need to think straight and do the right thing. But it's hard when the only thing keeping me sane and safe are meds, therapy, and TV. I guess you're just a means to an end but damn i can't stop thinking of you. Are you thinking of me too? RIght now? While you're home with your lady? Do you think of me when you touch her? I don't want this. I don't want to be this person anymore.