I used to hurt myself a lot. But never with razor blades, knives, what have you. I used to purposefully turn the bath water so steam would rise from the bath and it was like sitting in boiling water. I used to use it to lightly burn myself to punish myself and my skin still has faint evidence of this. I used to cause second degree burns especially because my skin is really sensitive. My body now reacts very negatively to hot water.

Another thing I would do was scratch enough to cause rope like burns and scratches because it was easier to blame on something different. I still have scars from it because my nails used to be really sharp. Also if I was to cut anything it would only be my fingertips.

I have struggled with it for years but I haven’t attempted to in over a year. Only my significant other really knows and it feels really good to get that off my chest.