4 months ago I was in a deep depression and in a toxic relationship.
I started depression, anxiety,depression, and adhd meds to get my mental health under control. I felt so much better to the point where I grew courage to leave my ex. The day I left my ex I met an amazing man. Everything was so perfect. Then he saw the anxiety side of me where I would over think that he didnt wanna be with me or was comfortable with me due to me being trans and also me overthinking that my mental health was too much for him. Yesterday I was having a rough day mentally and he decided to break up with me and told me I was emotionally draining. I have never felt so heartbroken. I am a foster kid so I've been thru alot in life but I did get adopted at 16 by an amazing family. I dont speak with my birth family because they dont accept me. I dont really feel like being in Texas anymore. I feel like yesterday was such a pushing point in all that's happened in my life that I just want to leave next week and buy a one ticket to New York City. I feel like that's the only thing I could do to not feel what I'm feeling right now. I am a 21 year old woman who has been homeless, beaten, abused mentally and physically, forced into conversion therapy and so much more and I feel that doing this would help me so much. All my mental health issues with PTSD an anxiety all have to due with my child good trauma so I feel so bad that I'm not a normal girl who doesnt have anxiety or PTSD. I wish I didnt go thru the traumatic events I went thru as a child because I would be mentally healthy and I wouldnt make everyone get tired of me. I have been crying all day and I cant help but think that what's the point in being in Texas anymore when it seems like I really dont have anyone. With all that's happened in my life I thought I truly found someone who really wouldnt leave me like this and I'm deeply saddened.
Anyone else up and leave and just start over in a new city/ state? My name is catizia and I really feel like I want to up and leave. I have enough money to support myself so that's not a worry. I just want everyone's opinion or stories that did this or have thought about this and why.