Here's some info to put things into perspective:

• I'm 19
• Graduated high school only
• Still living with parents

I wake up at 5AM to hit the gym, then go to work at 7AM, work myself to exhaustion till 4PM, make it home at 5PM only to nap for 2-3 hours, wake from said nap to browse the internet (Youtube, Reddit, ect.), finally fall back asleep around midnight only to do it all over again.

I go through a rollercoaster of emotions throughout the day; mostly acting on autopilot, but these past few weeks i've been having some mild suicidal feelings while I'm trying to sleep. I have no plans on ending my life soon but:

"I feel like I'm just wasting my life" - It's what constantly floods my thoughts right before bed.

Even though I'm barely turning 20 this year, I fear the thought of going through another year of "hitting the reset button again".

Thoughts?