So, this was about a month ago. A girl from school gave me her number, but I didn’t text her for some time. It took maybe 3 weeks to even send a simple “hello.” I just wasn’t sure what to say and my anxiety and depression have just been getting the best of me.

Anyway, I sent her a text and apologized for not texting her. I didn’t give an explanation since I didn’t want to freak her out, but she said that it was fine and not to worry. I was pretty relieved and wanted to keep talking to her, so I sent her another message to see how the semester was going, but unfortunately, it’s been a few days now and she I haven’t heard back. I can’t say that I’m surprised. She’s probably upset with me and I can’t say that I blame her.

It’s not the first time I’ve done something like this and I’m afraid that I’ll never change. I don’t mean to hurt anyone. I’m terribly lonely, but I let my anxiety get the best of me and I often worry that I’m going to die alone. I feel so dumb.