Recently someone I know was diagnosed with cancer. I can't be specific because some of my friends are on Reddit. Anyways. I never thought I would be saying this. She's always been sort of condescending, but ever since she's had cancer she acts like a brat entitled to everything. She gets mad when people complain about things (because NOTHING is more important than cancer) and flaunts her cancer around like it's a fucking trend or like other people can't feel the way they do. She's getting love and attention I've never gotten. When I was suicidal and I was hospitalized and felt alienated and like no one took me seriously. I was treated like I was crazy. Nobody cares about me but they care about this asshole? I know she has cancer and I shouldn't be saying this. I know I'm in the wrong but I can't help feeling the way I do. Just because you have a chronic illness doesn't mean you are entitled to the world. When I suffered because my pain wasn't visible I never got the love or respect she did. I know she's facing a scary battle but fuck me, right?

TL;DR: I'm a shitty person who's selfish of a woman with cancer. I don't know what to do. I can't mention it in counseling or with anyone. I know I'm in the wrong but I can't help feeling this way. Someone please respond.