I've had this problem for as long as I can remember, I will do well or great or something but there's always some crucial or minor detail that fail to see which causes me to screw up big time. Or at times where I want to improve myself or have insecurities and people keep saying I'm fine just the way I am but I always see people become so much more successful than I am, whether its in school, work, sports, video games, deep/ intellectual conversations, I've seen so many people achieve feats in which I can only dream of, sometimes its gotten to the point where I feel completely jealous or patronized when people say "you're a hard worker", "you're an amazing person","Great just the way you are". My thoughts are how can I be such a great person if such and such is able to get a 4.0 GPA with ease when I can only get a 3.5 or Kem is able to stay in contact with his friends and family with such ease and stay fit while I struggle to make time to study and work and all I can manage is only a few close friends and 100 other acquaintances. Like I feel completely pathetic when people console me about this, I always try my best to reflect and meditate on ways I can be more desirable, mindful, knowledgeable, wise, fit, but I always seem to fall short when it counts the most. I don't know if I'm a perfectionist, obsessive, greedy or what but I honestly just hate feeling so stupid and worthless at the end of the day (sorry If my grammar isn't great, I get like this when I am agitated)