literally just typing into the void cause idk what to do anymore i feel worthless i feel disgusting i constantly feel like there’s something wrong with me and idk what to do. i literally sit in my room and spiral everyday just wondering why i wasn’t good enough or what it is about me that’s not enough or why meeting all these people is just simply not as fulfilling as talking to me. then you push me away saying it’s too much when you’ve been doing the same thing the entire time, you are truly the most selfish person i’ve ever met, you are a coward who can’t even be face to face with their emotions all you do is use people as stepping stones to get where you need to be or to stabilize yourself. you’re a leech a blood sucking life force i wish i never got the chance to interact with. you make me hate myself so bad and i will always resent you for that, you only care on your bad days and nothing will ever change that. despite all of that i miss you, despite all of that i want you to tell me that i matter and i mean something to you. i hate you for making me feel this way and always will. i have never genuinely wished for some to receive their karma more. just completely shitted on me the entire time you never cared you never will. everyone was right about you all you can do is cheat and play the victim and you have PERFECTED it congratulations dude