I don't want to annoy your peace anymore.

I'm over feeling like a burden

I sit here wondering what your thinking or doing. If your missing me or even want to message me.

It's like you saw an out to start all over with nantsy as your mum like your 16 again,but now you have exactly what you wanted.

I understand your confused and your also hurting and I'm so sorry I couldn't of done better these years for both of us and I still want to keep trying. That's why I will never hate you or stop being in love with you.

Most of all I want you to want me, even if it's from a far 😔 its so selfish of me and I'm sorry I can't help it.

Please don't blame yourself for this, I should of sent you to hospital when you were younger and not tried to fix you when I wasn't qualified to do so. Imagine where we could be now if I did, and I hate myself for that.

I still want to marry you when we get better 🥰 Even the current <1% chance of you wanting that makes me smile.

My kids give me hope and I'm here for them always. I want you to succeed but you have to be a big girl now, like the one I told you that you have been for the last 10 years.

Remember when you would cry because you were scared of a commitment or a situation, I held your shoulders and said "you got this"

My door is always open for you. Emotionally , Financially and Physically. You don't even need an appointment 🤷‍♂️

I care about you and I'm so proud your getting full time, if she thought you wouldn't get through the hard start, she wouldn't of put you through to the position

I want to protect you I want to be there for you But most of all I Love you

Please baby, Come home.