I went on a date with someone from a dating app, we met for coffee at lunchtime and it went great, we both felt a connection. Later that night we went dancing together, and it was so much fun. He’s extremely hot and a great kisser. I want him so bad, but I can’t ruin it and make him think I’m easy and then not respect me. I know I need to wait a while and keep getting to know him. I told myself I wouldn’t have sex with anyone I’m not in a committed relationship with. So only once he’s my boyfriend will I do stuff with him. But that’s so fucking difficult. He way he holds me and touches my hair and grabs my chin when he kisses me, he turns me on a lot.

I’m very into him as a person and I want to keep seeing him. I’m just nervous that I’ll cave in and mess around with him before any commitment is made. My last relationship, we fucked on the first date and he turned out to be a total asshole. I’d rather know if he is before sleeping with him. He’s so crazy attractive. I keep trying not to fantasize about him and it’s not working. I’m kinky and I love playing with people at the sex club I go to, but it’s different when I’m meeting someone for the purpose of dating them. I’d be really sad if it turned out that he only wanted sex and was pretending to actually like me as a person. So I have to wait. But this shit is not easy. My hormones make things so hard 😭